Panchen

From one door way to another
A Real Champ of a Dog!

 


Blind, Travelin' Silver Dog

Panny Panorama
The Travelin' Man
 

 

It's January 13, 2008. I must journal about this little dog for myself. I don't care if anyone else is interested. Born September 25, 1996, Panchen was one of the dogs CeeCee picked up at the Canadian border in 2000. The first time I saw him was in Virginia, the spring of 2005, Dog Party weekend. Although he'd been with Jim Fitzsimmon's and later with an elderly aunt, when I met him he was living with Ceese and Mac. Mac called him Champ. Every night, prior to climbing the stairs to the second story, Panchen joined in the nightly opera sung by Ceese, Mac and the dogs. Seated in the kitchen, including the dogs, in a sing-songy voice Ceese would say, "SING!" The dogs - each and every one of them - threw back their heads, wolf-fashion - and howled. The cacophony lasted about 20 seconds, at which time Ceese and Mac would applaud the dogs' efforts. Treats for all and off to bed. Panchen slept in bed with Mac. His job was to go to the bank with Mac, a job he took seriously. Ceese's house is situated down a long narrow lane in a wooded area. Each morning Panchen, Namse and Tom went for a walk down the lane with Mac. Here's two photos of Panchen, taken during my trip.

That summer, the summer of 2005, Panchen came to Colorado. Although it had been four years since he'd been with Drepung and Katu, they greeted each other with obvious recognition. Panchen mated with Garma and on Panchen's 9th birthday, his puppies - Vajra, Arsha and Chandra - were born.

   
After mating with Garma that summer, he was diagnosed with glaucoma. He underwent surgery to relieve the pressure in the eyeballs created by glaucoma. Dr. Hammond, an eye specialist, asked me if Panny had headaches. How was I to know?! The morning after his surgery, he greeted me with Panorama Dance, something I hadn't seen in a while. In the photos below, Panchen is blind.
   

 

Blind Dog

I follow the blind dog
Over the twisted trail,
Bled by the wild-rose thorns
Where he lashed his comet tail.

I follow the blind dog,
Crying to my star: O star
Of a passionate pagan's desire
Lead me to the truths that are.
Patrick Kavanagh

In the spring - wasn't it the spring? - of 2007 Panchen boarded a plane for what I thought would be his forever home.


Gail with Pip, Panchen and B.

Life doesn't always work out the way we want it to. Gail asked me if I was going to write about it. She thought I would have to write about it. She's right. I have to write about it. Her suggestion for the blog entry's title is All's Well That Ends Well. It is my sincere wish this happens. Panchen is now with three 'of his clan' - as Ceese would say - and Susan. He's been there less than 24 hours. I am grateful he's there. I'm grateful the light bulb finally went on in the empty attic that is my brain. There will be adjustments, things to work through. Panchen is 11 years old. He's blind. He's been passed hither and yon. I think it's important to document this (hopefully successful) transition. It may provide ideas, answers, hope, help and inspiration for others in similar situations. I'll be keeping the ongoing exchange between Susan and myself, along with helpful hints from Vickie (who has fostered a blind dog, penned Lessons From A Blind Dog and successfully placed Magoo in his forever home) right here on Panorama's Page.

The cast of writers, identified by font color:
Debby
Susan
Vickie

Read excerpts from Gail's emails about Panchen.

Vickie, January 12, 2008, on Panchen's transition:
 

Panny will adjust to whatever comes his way and thrive ...
 

These amazing beings love us and trust us implicitly. It just isn't part of their awareness that they should need to telegraph anything to us in order for their needs to be met or their well-being ensured. They are quite sure that we, as their pack leaders, operate only in their best interest at all times. Emotional selfishness is not a concept in dogdom and they don't know how hard we sometimes have to fight against it ourselves.

 
Dogs also have no mindset for emotional surrender or giving up. ... So they endure, assuming in their deepest doggy subconscious that whatever we abide for them is what is to be abided.
 
We will do our very best to make THIS his last place.
 
PANCHEN IS HERE !!!!!
What a tiny doll he is.
I just adore him.

We are all hunkered down on the floor trying to figure out the
logistics.  Panchen's little tail is wagging like it's gonna come right off.

THANK YOU.
MORE LATER....gotta play with the doggies.
 
He's doing fine.  Dinner is heating in the microwave.  I'm just going to put
him straight onto the Nature's Variety, but everyone will get it
"cooked" for a day or so and then we'll ooze back to raw.

Question:  My dogs get Heartgard
every month.  I assume since he wasn't getting it that he needs to be
tested for Heartworm right away?  Or at least before the next dose time
which would be the beginning of next month????

Time to feed the hungry masses...
Gee, this is so much easier.  One patty serves 4.  No need to carry one
over each meal until I have 3.....Hurrah.
Susan
 
Yes, he'll need to be tested before putting him on Heartgard. The
reason for that is if he actually has heartworms (which I doubt), a
Heartgard treatment kills adult worms as well as the microfilaria
(very, very immature heartworms..microscopic size). A dead adult
heartworm can lodge in a life threatening place. The test ensures that
won't happen.
 
I look forward to photos. Where do your dogs sleep?
Yangsom sleeps on our bed. Eli - the large lummox of a Labrador
Retriever - sleeps on a mat on the floor next to Rick's side of the bed. 

Okie doke.  I'll call the vet on Monday and make an appointment to have
him checked out.  I'll also call the groomer and have her add him to her
list of attendees on the 19th (or whenever it is).  My kids are being
somewhat snotty with him, but I suspect it won't last very long. 
Rinchen is probably the worst, and if I remember he wasn't much nicer to
Sammy when he first came either.

All three of mine usually sleep on the bed with me.

He's gonna be FINE.
Susan


I'm crying. Thank you, thank you, thank you! Please write me in the morning and let me know how it's going.
 
Omigosh, he's just scarfing his dinner down..
Don't cry !!!!!
This is just too cool.
Susan
 

 
I can hear Rinchen in the other room reading him the riot act.  Rinchen
actually has taken over the bed that came with Panchen, so he really has
his nerve.  Panchen however, seems happy in the new bed that I had here
for him....So....who cares?

Susan
You will probably hear from me every hour on the hour for a day or so
until I get over the newness.
 

   

 
Excellent! Hearing from you with up-to-the-minute updates. I'm finding myself drawn back into the library, checking my mailbox.
 
While supervised (which you're obviously doing) allow your dogs to let him know he's in their domain and he must figure out where he fits in. Not visa versa. He's old. He's blind. But he's a canine and will understand that he must fit into the new pack. I monitor such activity, but rarely intervene in dog-on-dog communication. You will probably see a lot of this posturing (like Rinchen in the bed that come with the New Dog) in the next few days, even weeks.
 
I am so excited. This has made not only my day, but my month!

Yeah, they are going to work it out just fine.  But I'm glad you
mentioned that it is his job to acclimate to their house rather than the
other way around.
We'll catch you up again tomorrow if not sooner.

By the way I forgot to ask Gail if she was flea and ticking them.
Could you send me her email address?

Oh yeah, and any advice on how to deal with his peeing in  the house? 
I'm assuming he's just marking everything because he just got here and
will "get over it" as soon as we establish an indoor outdoor routine. 
And, if I catch him when it's happening, I pick him up and carry him
outside.  But????  Is there something else I should or shouldn't be
doing?  Mostly he marked everything outside before we came in, but then
he drank a bunch of water and he's ready to start again....

Thanks
Susan

First night
well, I'm glad that's over, and the next one had better come soon.
all is fine, but it was NOT restful.

Early in the night, Panchen and Sammy slept peacefully side by side.
That was before I went to bed.
Once I tried to go to bed it got complicated because my other kids were
sort of boycotting.  I moved from the bedroom to the living room, then
back to the bedroom, each time with a different configuration of dogs or
no dogs.

Then we all got up.
Then Panchen and I went outside....just in case.

Then he was awake but unhappy on the bed, so I left him in the living
room with the other dogs.
Then he moaned....That was the worst....the sad lonely moaning....He
yodeled and moaned and it broke my heart.  That's when he really
realized he didn't have his own pack anymore.

Sometime around 4:30 I gave up and actually slept for a couple of hours,
and when I woke up Sammy was asleep next to me and Panchen was ready to
play a tiny bit.

He ate a good breakfast and has been wandering around bumping into
things and plotting courses.  There are 3 doors in and out of the
house.  I've made one of them totally inaccessible, but the other two
are complicated enough with steps and porches and decking that makes him
think it's okay to pee since he peed on the deck at Gails...

Poor guy.  What a job he has ahead of him.
My kids are still staying clear of him, and he's lost.
At the moment he's outside barking at something.  Raji started it and
Panchen decided to back her up.  Nothing serious.

I definitely don't know what I'm doing.
I haven't separated the "new dog" stuff from the "blind" stuff....

Barking is escalating.  Guess I'll go moderate.
Susan

PS  Can he see even light and dark????


Okay, Panchen has settled down into his new bed and all the puppies seem
to have settled.
Well, yeah, but there goes a neighbor dog barking and everyone (except
lazy slug Sammy) is on alert.
It's interesting to have a new bark in the house; his is entirely
different from any of the others....

Luckily I don't have to do anything today except watch over the puppies.
I'm hoping for a day like yesterday  -- sunny and mild -- in which case
we can spend a lot of time outside.

All will be well as soon as Panchen realizes that he is safe and loved
here.  Unfortunately it may take a while, since he has been shunted
around so much.  On the other hand, Raji got it pretty quick,
so....Let's hope he finds peace soon.

Time to read the paper and drink tea.
Well, maybe not, Rinchen thinks it's time to play.

Oh well....
Susan

Thanks for the updates. I've got a suggestion or two, which I'll send your way soon. Has he stopped hiking his leg? Gail said this was never a problem...If this is an issue, there is a protocol that's works well, if used with consistency.  

I'm not sure exactly what is going on with his peeing.  He did it once
this morning, but I really think he just hasn't got it clear what the
inside/outside parameters are on this new place and how to
navigate/negotiate going outside.  Of course it may just be ME that
doesn't know that stuff.  My "problem" is that since my dogs have their
own dog door, I don't know what their schedules are or even if they have
them.  They just go in and out as they please.  Apparently at Gail's
house P could just go out a door onto a deck and pee there.  Here there
is a front door and also a door from my bedroom and they each lead to
other porches with more steps to navigate;  also I don't know what
Gail's flooring issues were.  Here he has bare wooden floor and rugs
indoors, and then the front screened porch probably feels just like the
deck at her house where he was allowed to pee.....Poor little guy.

Okay, now he's doing a wander around the house, and of course I'm going
to worry that he wants to go out but doesn't know how to tell me.  I
know, I do this with every new puppy/dog, blind or sighted.   It will be
fine.  I am just nervous about his needs, and anxious that he feel safe
as soon as possible.


He does spend a lot of time finding places to just sit and appear to be
listening and smelling.  Whenever I see him doing that I try to give him
a bit of a voice so he knows where I am....

I'll look forward to the book on living with blind dogs.  Also Gail
mentioned someone (Chris?) who she used as a resource regarding the
blindness?

Gotta go be with them instead of talking about them.
Later
Susan

Tell Susan to start scent marking for Panny.  Use one scent exclusively for thresholds going outside and another scent marking a step-down (separate step-down scents to differentiate between interior and exterior).  She could also use a separate sent to mark common pathways in the house.

Poor Panchen.
He cries.
Breaks my little heart.
I've heard all kinds of vocalizing from my dogs, but I realize that he
has introduced two new ones:  a longing sort of a moan and what seems to
be crying....Not noises I want to hear a lot of....

Some of my Gompas have haunting vocalizations. Do you have a good book you can curl up on the couch with, him at your side. During this transition, I think lots of body contact with you would be beneficial. Quiet. Calm. Physical contact. Don't pamper and soothe him...be strong, but 'there' for him. This is why I suggest reading. It keeps you busy, not catering to his (albeit appropriate) behavior, yet you are there as a leader for him.

I do have an excellent book.
And now I have an excuse to read even before "before bed".
Great idea/plan.
Susan

Catching up...
 
A great resource, as this transition continues, is Vickie. For many months she fostered a blind dog named Magoo. Here's her suggestion about him learning to navigate your house, along with where he should and shouldn't go potty:
 
Tell Susan to start scent marking for Panny.  Use one scent exclusively for thresholds going outside and another scent marking a step-down (separate step-down scents to differentiate between interior and exterior).  She could also use a separate sent to mark common pathways in the house.
 
In Living With Blind Dogs, the author goes into detail regarding this.
 
I definitely don't know what I'm doing.
I haven't separated the "new dog" stuff from the "blind" stuff....
 
I'll help you as best I can from a distance. Vickie too. I'll forward a piece she wrote for the newspaper about Magoo, Lessons From A Blind Dog. Living With Blind Dogs should help separate 'new dog' stuff from 'blind' stuff. One thing that helps me when I have a dog in transition is observing, paying close attention to the new dog's actions. It took me a week to 'learn' Ranpa, who's been with me for about 6 weeks. That knowledge will help; be patient as you discover. For example, I now know that if Ranpa grumbles in the middle of the night, she needs to go potty. The first several times she did that, I wasn't sure what the problem was. Did she hear something outside? Did she want on the bed? Now I know it's because she has to go potty.
 
He can't see light and dark. His vision is completely gone.
 
All will be well as soon as Panchen realizes that he is safe and loved
here.  Unfortunately it may take a while, since he has been shunted
around so much. 
 
Yes, all very true! Patience for Panchen. There's the mantra! Patience, patience, patience. For now, be 'there' for him. Be a compassionate leader for him. Don't indulge his loneliness. It's sad, but the best thing you can do is provide security and leadership without coddling him. Hope that makes sense...
 
Besides 'learning' him, focus on scent marking, using what you'll learn in Living With Blind Dogs. I would take him outside often. If you're carrying him outside, start to build backwards using baby steps. For example, if he must go out a door, across a porch and down some stairs...carry him, but put him down for the final step (not stair) and give that entire action a name. Outside, go potty is what I use. When you bring him back in, repeat the same thing in reverse, putting him down when he's arrived 'in the house'. Again, give it a name. 'All done' would be appropriate. Repeat this often. As he becomes accustomed to this routine, build backwards. It's called back chaining. You start with what's expected at the end, and go backwards from there, increasing as the dog is ready.
 
Here's an example that may help you understand the concept. A dog is afraid to go up or down the stairs. You start by taking the dog to the bottom of the stairs, asking the dog to go down the last stair. Visa versa for going up. Carry the dog to the top, so the dog only has to go up one stair to succeed. GOOD BOY!! That's right! GOOD BOY!! When the dog can do one stair, add another so the dog must go up or down two stairs. And continue to build backward. Make sense?
 
Because he's blind, you'll want to incorporate the scent marking. Hey! I'll scan those pages and put them up with a private link, so you can get started with that ASAP. If marking is/becomes/continues to be a problem, belly bands can help with that transition.
 
Hope that covers your questions for now.

okie doke.
I've been watching him learn to navigate the rooms and the outdoor areas
already, so I'm not very worried.  He does seem to understand "up" for
getting up each step.  He also seems to know when he gets lost in the
garden areas that as soon as he can find gravel again he's at least on
one of the right tracks.  He'll have it all memorized soon.
Susan

Panchen's First Night and Day here
He's doing well....I have to assume and hope.
He's clearly disoriented and working hard to fix that.  I have no idea
if dogs go through a period like a person would of figuring "everything
will go back to normal soon", or if they get immediately with the
program of figuring out the present situation.  Ah well, either way, it
will be fine soon.

I have a couple of questions, and will certainly have more as time goes on.
1.  What were you using for flea and tick control and on what schedule?
2.  Were you using particular scents to mark parts of the house?  It has
been suggested, and I'm thinking that if you did, it would make the most
sense for me to use the same ones  -- i.e. vanilla for doorways, sage
for steps, etc.
3.  Did you bring a leash?  I don't know where I put it if you did.
4.  Has he been chipped?  Do you know his AVID number if so?

I've taken some pictures, but they are on the other computer.  I'll send
some soon.
Susan

Sun is OUT, and that's where we are all going too.
Life is always better from the yard.
Later
Susan

We just came in from an hour or two of gardening.  I pruned, Panchen
explored.  He's so much more relaxed already.  Here are some pictures,
including one of Raji on the couch on the front porch with the Koala
Bears, and one of Panchen and Sammy cuddled together in the armchair
(posed, not quite natural, I have to admit).

   

Panchen

Panchen and Sammy
   

Panchen

Raji
   
   

Gail, He's doing well....I have to assume and hope.
He's clearly disoriented and working hard to fix that.  I have no idea
if dogs go through a period like a person would of figuring "everything
will go back to normal soon", or if they get immediately with the
program of figuring out the present situation.  Ah well, either way, it
will be fine soon.

I have a couple of questions, and will certainly have more as time goes
    
on.
  
1.  What were you using for flea and tick control and on what schedule?
2.  Were you using particular scents to mark parts of the house?  It has
been suggested, and I'm thinking that if you did, it would make the most
sense for me to use the same ones  -- i.e. vanilla for doorways, sage
for steps, etc.
3.  Did you bring a leash?  I don't know where I put it if you did.
4.  Has he been chipped?  Do you know his AVID number if so?

I've taken some pictures, but they are on the other computer.  I'll send
some soon.
Susan

He's Playing!!!!
Oh my goodness.
He likes to roughhouse !!!!
Wheeeeeeee...

Gotta go encourage this.
S

With which dog? This is excellent!

really with ME. He kinda bounced up to me and started doing that thing
where he pretends he's butting you with his head....and/or trying to
screw his forehead into the ground.  I boxed his ears and he just rolled
around a bit.  Soon he and  Sammy were doing a bit of playing too,
although Sammy always acts as though anyone who sniffs his butt is
insulting his dignity.  He sort of does this jump up and turn around and
gives the offending dog a withering glare of indignation.  But Sammy
loves to get me to wrestle with him, so they will be great pals..
Rinchen is still gonna give him a hard time for awhile...He's always a
bit standoffish.  He makes me get back up out of bed and go ask him to
join me....Never takes it for granted that I want him to come and sleep
with us....

Seeing him with his longish hair makes me consider (consider !!!!)
letting everyone get a bit longer.  Hmmmmm....I have a few weeks to decide.

Susan

He's PLAYING !!!!!  and FIGHTING
but Raji and Panchen had their first knock-down tonight.  I was watching
TV with Panchen next to me on the sofa when Raji jumped up onto my lap. 
Panchen probably got cuffed in the process, and flew into a rage at Raji
who raged right back.  Luckily I was right in the middle and it was easy
to get them to give it up.  They're both pissed off, but...that's life,
and frankly I'm glad to see him engaging even if it's being a crabby
little so and so.
Susan

He's PLAYING!!!! and FIGHTING part 2
Raji had retired to my room after the dustup with Panchen.  I just went
and snuggled with her a bit, carried her in and tried to put her on the
other side of my lap, but Panchen lashed out at her.  Whaaaaa.   Looks
like Panchen will be sleeping in his own bed on the floor tonight.  Raji
is not gonna get kicked out of her own bed;  he's gonna have to mind his
manners.  Last night she slept in the living room, but so did Rinchen,
and I figured it was just a transition.  Guess I'll make sure my three
are back to normal before I invite him back up on the bed for sleeping.

Does that sound right to you?
Susan

Absolutely!!

If I were transitioning, he would sleep in a crate by my bedside. Close to me and his new pack, but not up close and personal. The dogs have enough to sort out right now. While Ranpa has been here, she's been allowed full house privileges unless I'm gone or it's bedtime. She sleeps in a crate right next to my bed. I can flop my hand right next to the door, if needed, for a bit of comfort. Approaching it this way allows the rest of the dogs to sleep status quo, yet starts the transition of Panchen sleeping in bed (if that's the desired end result) with 'the pack'. The crate offers a certain sense of security, a den - if you will. He is crate trained and should have no issue with barrier frustration. I think this approach offers the best possibility of a nice night's sleep for all involved. If you don't have a crate, consider tethering him to your bedside. That's the way the Monks of New Skete have done it for years. The tether functions basically like a crate. Keeps the dog 'confined' and secure by you. You could put his bed next to your bed, where he can sleep in it, tethered.
 
One more thing...don't make the mistake of thinking Panchen's establishing territory or trying to be 'alpha' with his lashing out. He is not an alpha dog (and it's recently been discovered that packs are far more 'fluid' than previously thought). His behavior is defensive, albeit a bit warped. I do think that is almost all related to his blindness, not his newness. This is not to say you should ignore it! But, you need to understand it in order to handle the scuffles that arise. I would monitor any scuffles and it they don't subside appropriately almost immediately, I would flex my own alphaness. KNOCK IT OFF!!! WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING??!! I might also apply a little 'time-out'.
 
There's another book that may be helpful for you...Canine Body Language, A Photographic Guide by Brenda Aloff. Do realize that Panchen can't 'read' the body language, however it will be very helpful for you to know 'what' the dogs are 'saying'. It also shows appropriate alpha behavior, geared to human alpha behavior, not canine. Often the appropriate alpha behavior from us is to simply ignore the spats, while monitoring that no one gets hurt.   
 

Thanks more and more.  I just got two long emails from Gail which I will
forward to you.
I do not have a crate.  Maybe I will just try to fence him into a small
area by my side of the bed.  Tethering sounds a bit scary to me.
Good about the non-alpha male perspective.  I was thinking they were
vying for "oldest/lamest/most venerable" status.  I think you are right,
though, that it is his vulnerability that is the issue.
I'm going to try to put the whole passel of us into the bedroom now, so
I will get back to you again with progress reports tomorrow.  Tomorrow I
will also call Avid to get Panchen moved to my account, call the vet for
an appointment, and call the groomer to add him to our appointment later
this month.  At the moment, Panchen is sitting on my lap with his chin
on my right forearm as I type.  Raji is already in our bed (which is her
usual behavior).

Until tomorrow.
Good night.
Susan

Gail wrote:
just got the message...Firstly...he only lived in the kitchen and the
bedroom and went to pee on the outside porch...I didn't let him have the run
of the house...and the stairs are gated off...We have a level in house. So
it didn't take long for him to navigate into the kitchen and the
bedroom...and I would open the sliding door to go outside where he might sit
on a blanket in the sun...You have a lot more territory than I do...I did
not bring a leash...I have one and I have a halter that I can send you...I
would be glad to...I didn't think to bring it. I am assuming the Gompas are
microchipped. Debby would have that AVID number. I do not...So I didn't have
to use oils to mark places...altho I certainly used many essential oils...I
used oil (Jatamansi) on the top of his head at night for calming.and Rescue
Remedy also.....I never even thought to let him have the run of the
house...My shih tzu who is 16 ,doesn't, but the little shih tzu does. I
trust him not to pee. The rug in the living room, even tho it is clean, has
been peed on so many times.by foster dogs...so just as a matter of
principle, I don't let the dogs go in there...I changed my ideas about using
flea control on the dogs several months ago...I would use it if I absolutely
had to during the summer, but not on a regular basis...I would use baths
instead...Panchen does have a habit of scratching his hind leg on the side
of his body...He started to do that when he came to me..The flaxseed oil or
fish oil in his food would help...I was using a supplement from Warren
Eckstein...dog behaviorist..just google Warren Eckstein....I just have a
feeling it was from the inoculation he had before he came...Also did you
note the little cyst on the right side of his muzzle? Chris is here and said
to go to blinddogs.com   I would love to see the pics...!!! She also said to
explain to him the situation about living in a new house now with his Gompa
family....since I didn't...Panchen wasn't outside in the woods.. just
outside for a little every day...in thinking about the heartworm...Panchen
went in the car with me alot...when I did errands...Like Mac who took care
of Panchen for awhile, said Panchen liked to have a job...He would go to the
ashram in the morning with me, wait in the car and then when we left, he
knew he would get a muffin...from Fanny's..He likes to be held..He likes to
watch tv on the couch...He would go to San Francisco to the reflexologist
with me and sit in the chair while I had my treatment and was very
quiet...But I would think what he wasn't able to get with me, being outside
and exploring the garden and trailing the other dogs is very important for
him...He loved his bed. He had a post by the door in the kitchen...He liked
to be able to retreat to that spot..his spot...a security for him. How did
he do last night? Did he sleep in the bedroom? Oh yes, he does love a raw
marrow bone...But he is possessive of it...so..Did that help? I will send
you the leash and the harness...The veterinary opthamologist always says no
collars for dogs with eye stuff...so thats why I use the mesh harness...It
doesn't increase the pressure in their eyeballs like a leash and collar do
in the higher risk dogs...

Oh Gail, that is all very helpful.  Thank You.  Every bit of information
helps me to understand what I should and shouldn't expect from this
guy.  It seems as if he is going to have a lot more room to roam here
and therefore will have to master a lot more.  Seems to me that will be
good for him, and I can see already that he is up to the task.  He has
spent a lot of time just moving around the rooms, approaching everything
slowly enough that he just bumps and turns and bumps and turns.  (Maybe
that cyst is really a callous from navigating with his nose????)  
Anyway, he's just going to have to have the run of the house because I'm
in it all the time and moving from room to room.  Perhaps if I were away
from the house for long periods I would end up closing him into fewer
rooms, but it's just not how life is here.  He will have to learn some
more ups and downs, but already I can see that when he bumps into the
front stoop and I say "up" he gets it that he doesn't have to turn away,
that that is where he can come "up".  He's a very smart little cookie.

He hasn't slept in his bed since he's been here, and I'm not sure what
that is about.  Well, for one thing, Rinchen took it over right away,
but even when it's been free, he's seemed to be more likely to find a
place very much in the middle of the room and just hunker down there. 
I'm sure all that will change.  None of my kids have their own beds; 
they all rotate and share and roam from bed to bed to bed....there are
just lots of them in various sizes and places, and I'm sure eventually
he'll feel free to to the same.

I did bring him onto the bed with me last night, at which point two of
my three left in indignation.  We did a lot of getting up and getting
down and going out and moving from room to room to see if we could find
a comfort zone, but eventually I just had to sleep and ignored them all
for a couple of hours.  No one except me seems the worse for wear.

We will definitely have to put him on Advantix here.  Fleas and ticks
are rampant.

My dogs have always used harnesses (not collars), so we are used to that
regimen.

My mind is pretty boggled by all of this, so if I'm not terribly
coherent,  you will just have to pardon me and wait until the newness
wears off.  Thank you again for giving Panchen to us.  We will do our
best to deserve him.

Susan and Rinchen and Raji and Sammy

You are very coherent...and the fact that he is not hiding in his bed is
very good I think...shows he is interested and going to be
comfortable...Alot of being in his bed was out of insecurity and the fact
that he could not be in the same room with B the old tzu....If they bumped,
they would fight. I didn't realize how small his world was...If he had gone
into the living room, he would then have gone into Zak's room and Dani's
room and I did not want him to get lost in there and pee in there and
possibly get tangled in computer wires...Our stairs down to Bruce's office
are very steep...no one can go down there except the cat...So its gated
off...Like I said, I love your house...someday I hope I can have a similar
one...very open and esp. with a screened in porch...reminds me of the
sleeping porch in my grandfather's house in Michigan that we all adored...a
glorified log cabin a block from the beach with two yards...I just want a
house like that...You have a good dog house...Mine is not right now....Yes I
know...ticks and fleas...ugh...See up here in the hills, fleas were not too
bad...cause its not so dry and hot as on the flatlands, like in San Leandro
where my friend Chris, the lhasa person lives.....She had a horrible time
this last summer with her dogs and the fleas and finally had to resort to
Frontline...and I never walked Panchen down the hill...carried him...didn't
walk him...and yes, he is very smart isn't he??? Debby told me he had the
doggy door at her house so it shouldn't be so much of a challenge to
learn...more later....hope you get some sleep tonight...
 

Keeping my fingers crossed you've received at least 3 hours sleep rather than 2...
 
I've thought and thought about how/what I would teach to lessen the chances of fighting. I think this is 'blind' dog stuff far more than 'new' dog stuff. Panchen can't see what's going on, so something like Raji jumping up on your lap, with him in the immediate vicinity scares/threatens him. Dogs are programmed for Fight or Flight when scared/threatened. That is what's going on and it's important to understand that in order to teach/prevent.
 
If you're waiting for Living With Blind Dogs to come into your library, I suggest you purchase it instead. It will be a great reference book. Such encounters are discussed in the book. One of the suggestions is to put a bell - a different sounding bell - on each dog and yourself. This way the blind dog knows which dog is approaching. Makes sense to me, although I wonder why each dog's different scent doesn't provide enough information?? Maybe you can find other solutions cruising some of the resources for blind dogs on the internet. I am interested to know what helpful tips you discover.
 
I'd work on a cue to let Panchen know another dog is coming near when he's relaxing with you on the couch. "Here comes Raji!". Or maybe warn Panchen to behave himself, which would provide leadership. Leadership provides security which lessens the dog's Flight or Fright mechanism. You can teach both. "Here comes Raji!" (happy, uplifted voice) "Panchen, IT"S FINE!" (lower, slower voice)

Good Morning.
Yeah, we're getting the hang of it.  The house is filthy, P peed in the
hall this morning.  And I'm still short on sleep.  BUT I think we are
making enormous progress.
Last night I did what I said I did and made an enclosure that just fit
around the donut bed that Gail had brought up with him.  It was right in
the corner at the head of my bed, so I could reach down and fondle him. 
Rinchen and Raji just stayed in the living room.  Sammy slept (he's a
champion sleeper) on the other side of me.  Well, Panchen wasn't having
any of it.  He cried until I picked him up and took him outside for a
check on whether he had to pee.  Of course he marked, but that was all. 
Back in his cell.  Then he barked and barked and barked....sound machine
didn't begin to soothe him.  Well, Rinchen and Raji were still
boycotting the bedroom, so I picked him up and tucked him into the side
of me close to the edge of the bed, with Sammy slammed up against the
oher side, and he just slept and slept and slept.  Hurrah.  In the
morning, Raji came in to get me up, basically ignoring him.
This morning I took him outside, but I'm not used to having to do that,
and I probably wasn't patient enough.  Soon after he came back in he was
fretting at a closed door into my office, and that fretting meant he had
to pee.  I didn't catch it as his signal, and he peed a small river
there in the hall.  Big deal....

He actually seems pretty happy this morning.  He scarfed down his
breakfast (Nature's Variety raw);  then I took him outside and he had a
nice pale brown solid poop;  and right now he's doing justice to his 1/4
of a Jumbo Flossie.

I pushed him in and out the tiny dog door a few times this morning and
scented that with Amber essence.  Trouble is now I smell of amber
too....  I think I am going to do very little scenting, going on the
assumption that each of  us has his/her own scents (as you mentioned). 
I mean even I can tell the difference between Sammy's smell and any
other dog's smell;  I just love how he smells, by the way;  and if I
can, I'm sure a blind dog can.

I think Sammy and Panchen are going to pair up much the way Raji and
Rinchen are paired.  One older one younger;  the older acting more like
the younger in a lot of cases.

I just noticed that he seems to be missing his bottom front teeth?  Is
that right?  Which reminds me, so I can tell the vet, maybe you have a
brief list of his medical history?  Maybe the glaucoma surgery is the
only thing, but Gail didn't seem to have any medical information except
the papers you sent with him when he was shipped to her.  Re the
Glaucoma surgery, remind me of the date and description.  P will be
going to the same veterinary group (3 women) who have been taking care
of my three since I got Rinchen who had to be operated on immediately
for Cherry Eye.  They are familiar with me and my Gompas....

Time to drink some tea and ....
Susan

PS  I still have the little carrying front pack I got when I first got
Rinchen.  I may try putting P into it today while I run the vacuum....

Tea !!!!!

Panchen's second morning   
He's sitting beside me here in the armchair as I type this.
He's very calm.  All the other kids are in nap mode in various places. 
Raji is probably back up on my bed, as she's the only one I can't see
from here, and that's where she usually is at this time of the morning.

On Friday at 10:20 we see the vet.
On the 24th he goes to Kathy for grooming.

Everything is on track!!!
I love this little guy.

Susan

well well well
Another blindness dustup and a pollyanna moment.

Just a bit ago all the dogs were sleeping in various parts of the living
room and I took the opportunity to go into the bedroom to vacuum.  Just
as I was stopping, I heard Panchen screach, and I ran out just in time
to see that Sammy had hurled himself into the chair, scared the p*** out
of Panchen, and Panchen had screamed and bitten.  Okay, then, your
diagnosis was right on target.  Blindness not aggression is the
problem.  We can handle all that.

Back to finish vacuuming it occurred to me that perhaps both Sammy and
Raji will learn not to hurl themselves into laps without invitation???  
They both do it.  My personal perspective is always a slight apology and
a shrug.....the dogs live here, we hardly have any guests, hope  you
don't mind....It IS their house, afterall.   Anyway, it would still be a
better thing if they waited to be invited, and maybe Panchen will teach
them something I've been too lackadaisical to bother with.

We're climbing the learning curve....

Susan
 

Panchen the  Perfect
So as of today, he's officially "got it". He likes the arm chair.  He's
okay with the leather sofa (kinda cold).  He likes the furry thing on
the floor.
He'd rather stay inside....thank you.

When he got fidgety a while back I figured I'd take him out.  So, I
picked him up and carried him out the front door.  Put  him on the deck
(one step down to the walkway).  He followed my voice and sorta stumbled
on the step at the same time that I said "down".  Then I said "okay, go
pee".  So he found his favorite nearest tiny bush and lifted his leg. 
Then he went back up the step, along the deck, turned right and went up
two steps, went across the porch and up the step into the living room,
found the grey furry thing on the floor and went back to sleep.

I'm impressed !!!!
and in love....

Susan
 

Good Morning Susan,
 
Just to let you know, I'm not usually at the computer during the week. I do check email and try to keep things updated, like my work schedule. I don't want you to think that because I'm not responding like I was over the weekend, that I don't care! I love reading about Panchen's transition.
 
Quickly...as I have to get on with the morning and be at the shop by 8AM. Thought more about bells and scent and why bells might be necessary when dogs have such a keen sense of scent. I'll bet it because the sound of each dog's bell lets the blind dog know how close the other dog is getting. The blind dog can smell the dog, but can tell proximity better using sound, not scent.
 
Regarding dogs on laps without invitations. I understand your previous approach - the dogs live here and it's their home - if you don't like it, leave. I have the same belief about visitors in my home. The thing to consider is that a dog sitting on a lap is dominant posturing, in the canine world. You can see why the dogs might think it's a grand idea with guests. Not only do the dogs display territory dominance, but they get petted too! Win, win from the dog's perspective. My dogs are NOT allowed to determine if and when they get on my lap. Just as they're not allowed to go through a doorway in front of me, unless I've indicated they may do so. I invite them on my lap. That way my 'posturing' is that of dominance.
 
You might want to consider incorporating this - the lap invitation - into your daily routine. It might help resolve Leaping Into The Lap and startling Panchen. To do this, when one of your dogs gets on your lap without invitation, simply remove him/her. You may have to outlast the dog while introducing the concept. After the dog has stopped attempting the lap sit, invite him/her into your lap. Using a simply pat of your hand on your lap will suffice.
 
Yes, he has missing teeth, more than just the bottom front teeth. This group of dogs doesn't have the best dental formation to begin with. His nutrition as a youngster, I'm sure, was lacking. He did have his teeth cleaned when he was neutered, prior to going to Gail's last year. Did Gail give you the information that came with him? The date of his Rabies vaccination should be on there. If I were determining his vaccinations, I wouldn't be vaccinating him. Don't know your veterinarians' opinion on vaccinations, but I am a minimalist on the subject. A minimalist!!
 
His eye surgery was done in September 2005, by Dr. Todd Hammond, a veterinary eye specialist. After he determined Panchen was blind, and gave me the options, I selected the least invasive. Basically, with glaucoma the duct work that allows the ever flowing liquid in the eyeball to exit breaks down, plugging up the works. This creates great pressure in the eye, is very painful and cause severe headaches. Humans, of course, can tell someone they have a headache. Dogs cannot. The choices were to remove the eyes; remove the eyes and put in prosthesis, or the alternative I selected. It was least invasive with a 70% chance of success. Panchen's surgery was successful. Dr. Hammond destroyed some of the entrance duct work, so fluid doesn't enter the eyeballs.  

 

   
   

We have now reached a level of comfort when I don't think you have to
worry about leaving me alone for the week.  I am an internet addict. 
I'm online all day and so I may send you a bunch of messages as I think
of things.  But I will know that you have a life and won't expect to
hear back immediately.  Panchen is asleep in the other armchair (the one
that used to be mine), and the other three are sleeping in various
places on the floor and in beds close by.  He's doing so well that I
can't imagine we will have any need for "help" or "information" in a
hurry now.

Last night (night 3), I just pulled Panchen into bed on the side of me
between the edge of the bed and where the other dogs usually sleep. 
Only Sammy slept with us.  Raji and Rinchen stayed in the living room. 
I have to say it was very comfortable to be in the middle of the bed
with only one dog on each side.  And neither Raji nor Rinchen seems
upset by this change.  Who knows how long it will last for.  It doesn't
seem worrisome.  As soon as Raji realized that Panchen had moved into
the living room, she came and laid down with me for a while.. It is all
working out...

We will still probably have to do without bells since my dogs don't wear
collars.  (All their ID stuff is on their harnesses, which they only
wear when we leave the property, which at this point is only about once
a month for the groomer.)   If, on the other hand, you know of or find a
source of GOOD small bells, I'd reconsider.  A few years ago I went
looking for bells for either the dogs or cats or something, and couldn't
find anything that was tiny and had a good sound.  I'd bell them if I
could find real melodic bells;  everything I could find that was small
just jangled or clanged.

So, all is well and  you can go on with your life knowing you have made
a match that has made our life quite heavenly.

Susan

Be Thou My Vision...
Tuesday, January 15, 2008

 

 
This is a rough sketch of a blind dog. His name is Panchen, and he is a Gompa Apso from Tibet.
He came to this country, the United States, for the purpose of saving his kind by virtue of his unique and precious genes. He has walked that path, passed on his genes to a new generation of Tibetan Apsos. Now, he is adjusting to a new life among his kin at the private home of a kindred spirit, where he can live out his sightless life in safety and love and acceptance.
 
I have been walking a path through the darkness in my own life. Often, I have wondered what it would be like to be physically blind. We talk about "blind faith". We ask of the LORD, "Be Thou my vision.." The Word tells us that "faith comes by hearing, and not by sight," meaning that we listen with our hearts. We seek to enlighten our souls with the vision of the heart, as we walk by faith, and not by sight.
Now comes a blind dog to show me the way. He is not mine; my only connection to him is one of empathy, yet he is present in my prayers. Right now, he must re-align himself with the new world that is his universe. He must do so relying strictly on his intuition, his sense of smell and hearing, and the vision of his heart. Surely, this Spirit of Dignity is guided by the Source of All That IS.
My heart aligns itself with yours, Panny.


 

Panchen is doing beautifully.
Susan

Hello there, and I'll bet you are looking forward to your weekend.

Yesterday I took Panchen to the vet, and she seemed generally pleased
with him.  She reminded me that when I first started going to her I was
a "cat person".   How life has changed....

I'm guess I'm not going to get Panchen licensed here, which will mean
that no one will be showing up to hassle me about Rabies every few
years.  (I need to figure out how to get out of doing that to Rinchen
and Sammy without having the county come looking for me when I don't
renew their licenses.  I'll be trying to stay apprised of the Rabies
Project stuff;  is there a website I should have bookmarked?)

My vet's take on the vaccinations was  "I wouldn't recommend any for him
at this age...."  Good.

And, today the vet's office called to report that all his lab work
looked normal and that he tested negative for heartworm.  Apparently
that will tell us that he didn't have heartworm 6 months ago.  In 6
months we will test him again, just to be sure nothing developed since
then.   Meanwhile, he can be put on Heartgard, which I will do asap.

Dr. Leavy did look at his cyst, but we (I) forgot to ask her what she
thought about it.  She will call later in the week and I will ask her
then.  I just checked with Gail to ask her when it had shown up, and she
said he had it when he arrived at her house.  I had not realized that,
or I would have asked you about it.  Did you ever get a vet's opinion on
it or have it biopsied or any of that?  No sense putting Panchen or my
bank account through any tests that we really don't need.

All that and heaven too.
He's acclimating beautifully.
So are we.

Susan

Panchen seems to be doing very well.  Sometimes I worry, but I'm a
worrier by nature, so that's not surprising.  I worried when I woke up
this morning and found he had pooped and peed in the living room (I'm
pretty sure he had pooped before bedtime, so I probably just missed his
signals when he jumped off the bed and went into the other room);  I
worried this morning when he and Rinchen went at it (Rinchen lost more
hair than Panchen did, as far as I can tell.)  But....the worry is
always followed by triumph.  Soon after breakfast he made a beeline for
an open door, went down 4 steps I had no idea he could navigate, and
pooped when he hit the dirt;  and today when I came home from having
left them all alone in the house for the first time, they ALL came
running to the door to greet me.  All in all, I think we are all doing
very very well.  Truth is my Sammy is pretty neurotic (sometimes I even
think schizophrenic), Rinchen is always mean to visiting dogs, Raji
hates ALL human males, and Panchen has just brought a new and slightly
different set of oddities to the table.
   
Yesterday I took him wine tasting with me, and he was -- as always --
the center of attention.  He really loves to ride around in the pack. 
We got to a friend's house where there were two small dogs, and he got
right out (peed on the floor, which was absolutely my fault since every
other time I've taken him out of the pack, my first words to him have
been "go pee") and generally made himself at home.

On Thursday he will be getting his hair cut short when all four of the
kids go to the groomers.

All is well here.
Susan

Panchen's haircut
1/26/2008

Okay, okay, he's not so very regal looking anymore.
In fact, he looks downright dorky.
But, hey, who cares, right????!!!!

He was pretty severely matted underneath his gorgeous coat, so this
first cut was a bit more drastic than future ones may be.  Also, when I
went to pick him up, Cathy had still left his ears longer than I wanted,
so I chopped them when we got home  -- so it's not his fault if he looks
a bit silly.

We've had days of rain with a brief dry spell this morning  -- whew. 
For two days I've taken him outside to pee and poop and he has
resolutely headed for the door.  Forget it he says....I want to go
inside where it's dry.  This morning's brief respite gave him a chance
to get a head start on the next rains, and I can stop about his needing
to go out and take a much needed visit to the Y for a dip in the warm
warm pool.

All is well here.
Susan

 

   
   
 

Clearly, today, everyone in the house is beginning to feel comfortable. 
My dogs, who have been wary, have finally gotten it that there really is
enough to go around.  Panchen seems to understand now that no one is
jostling him on purpose.  The anxiety has left and we are now in full
enjoyment of our bigger family.

And Panchen is looking better by the minute.  The new ends of his
haircut are beginning to fall into place; he's looking up instead of
holding his head down;  he comes running to the door when I come home....

Blah, blah, blah....
I think the story is now complete.

Susan

 

 

Meet here Panchen, Gompa Apso from Tibet.

He has literally traveled the world and lives now in his forever home with his new person and three of his Apso clansmen.
Blind, yet his vision extends over the miles to look into my heart.
Fare thee well, Silver Dog!

Panchen's posture gets more upright by the day.
Here are the four gompas all doing their Sunday morning snoozes.

Your library pictures are stunning.
Katy's picture of Panchen is excellent.  She did a good job of dealing
with the blindness without showing his eyes specifically.

Susan

Here's what a nice sunny day can do even for an "Old Blind Dog"

 

3/1/2008
Poor Champ !!!
Got mauled today by a pit bull.
Yup.
Not a bad dog, but little blind Champ slipped through a siny hold in the
fence and taunted him.
He got bit in three places.
The fence was too big for me to get over, so I had to run out to the
street and to the back of my neighbors property to rescue him.
He was hurt and when I tried to pick him up, he bit me....of course.
I brought him in the house, put him down, took off my bloody clothes and
went to pick him up.
He thrashed and bit me some more....
Poor little guy.
We just spent a few hours and a few more dollars at the emergency vet.
Now we wait to see if he heals.

Sad sad sad....
 
Good Morning.
I'm thinking he's going to be fine.  Most of the punctures have stopped
bleeding this morning.  The one that is the worst and the one that seems
to be hurting him is still bleeding, and (since I haven't quite learned
how to pick him up without hurting him) making him scream.  On the other
hand, he's eating well (I've been feeding him in his nest for these
first two meals), and when I took him outside to see if he would pee (he
wouldn't), he seems to walk just fine.  In other words, I don't think
there are any breaks, although  his howling when I picked him up this
morning made me fear for that. 

The vet was cautiously optomistic.  He seemed to think that none of the
wounds were life threatening on the surface, but that we would not be
out of the woods for complications for 4-5 days.  I hated that part. 
Anyway, I'm giving him Clavamox (antibiotic) and also a drug I'm not
familiar with -- Metacam  -- which is an NSAID.

Today I will venture out to the pharmacy to pick up some wound cleaning
"stuff" (maybe Betadine?) and we will do a job on keeping him clean. 
Then we will wash sheets and towels.  And I may need to fashion some
sort of  "Elizabethan collar" to keep him from licking on it;  if you
have any ideas of how to fashion something to keep him from reaching his
back upper leg with his tongue, I'd appreciate that.

That's it for this morning.
Now for a cup of tea

Susan
 
This morning as I was cleaning up the stuff I'd taken off and dumped in
the bathroom, I noticed/remembered that when the ruckus had erupted
yesterday, I'd been wearing my pruning gloves.  I'm thinking now that my
own hands would be in a whole lot worse shape if I hadn't had them on.

Any ideas how to get blood out of leather?

Here's a picture of Champ in his little hospital bed in the living room.
He slept the night in his usual place in my bed....tucked up next to my
head.  I had tried to put him in a nest next to the bed, but he (or I)
really needed the comfort of having him closer.

There's also a picture of his deepest puncture, which is still bleeding
this morning, but should taper off...The other places seem to have
stopped bleeding.

And my hand-saving gloves.  My left hand is all swollen between the base
of the thumb and the wrist, but as you can see, it doesn't hamper my
typing, so life proceeds and we will spend the day being very very quiet.

 
 
 
 
Unless I am way off base, he's gonna be JUST FINE !!!!!
The last of the punctures finally stopped bleeding sometime during last
night.
The vet actually had to remind me multiple times that the extended
bleeding from a puncture wound is a good thing, since it increases the
probability that any infectious agents will get washed out of the
wound.  Punctures are most dangerous when they close at the outside and
leave some noxious material inside to fester and abcess.  So, much as
the continual bleeding feels wrong, it's really right.

I tried to make myself put an e-collar on him yesterday, but....I
couldn't do it.  He was just too miserable.  So, I just  wrapped him
tightly enough that he couldn't lick himself all the time (he still got
to it, just not constantly), and told him to stop (which he mostly did)
when he started up again.  My failures as a mom are legion !!!!

I have to say that I think four dogs are too many.  On the other hand,
there is not one of them that I would or could give up.  It's that
simple.  I love them all, but I do think that unless you are a much
better disciplinarian (in its best meaning) than I am, it definitely
gets tricky.  And on yet that other other hand, I think that one of
these days not so far from now I will be telling anyone who wants to
listen that four is the perfect number.  We're just having a rocky start
here, and I do tend towards fretting.

The sun is out and there is a lovely breeze today, the bass chime out
front is sounding most mellow, and Champ is lolling about on the couch
on the front porch.  Not a bad way or place to recuperate from a mauling.

Susan
 
 
Lyin in the sun
March 22,2008
Champ may not be able to "see" that fine sunny day, but he sure does
know how good it feels on his tiny body.  Actually not so long after I
took this he decided it was too hot, and moved up a step and into the
shade of the screened porch.

He's lookin' good, feelin' good, being just contrary enough for me to
know he's jes' fine.

He's still pretty solitary.  Every morning Sammy plants himself in front
of Champ in "let's play", and gets tweaked to the max that Champ
"ignores" him.   Duh.....  I obviously have more reading to do, because
I am wondering if they ever get it that he can't see them????

It doesn't matter so much.  I have come to a very satisfactory sense
that this dog belongs here even if he doesn't mix it up so much.  He
seems to have no trouble getting himself to the front of the group when
it's time to go back inside after a trip away.  There he is, nose
against the door, before I even get near it with my key.  I know, I
know, they're supposed to let me in first, but....somehow I take great
pleasure in seeing him push his way to the front....and they don't seem
to mind, so why should I????

I'm in love with Suzanne Clothier.  She is making our lives richer by
the day.  For 4 years now I've wondered why Rinchen won't bring the ball
back to me when I throw it.  Duh.....he likes the game HIS
way....duh???!!!!   Small thing.  If we're going to play, why not play
his way????   If he's willing to sit and wait for food, I should be able
to chase him with the ball, right? 

'Nuf said.
I'm so glad your Chris is home again.
Susan
 
Wouldn't you just know that his very last haircut was gonna be his best....????
He has the cutest little face and body.
I love seeing all his tiny little features and the twists of his old body.
Susan
   
   
 
 
You'd never think from looking at them that there was anything amiss, now would you?
   
   
   
 
 
 

Hi Debby:  Do we want to think about sending Panchen on the plane?

 

Debby:  Have you read Bones Would Rain from the Sky? I came across this passage a couple days ago as I contemplate my old dogs mortality....(I hate it....) The way she helps me understand this is so brilliant....On page 296...."Just above a dog's paw, where rough pad curves in fullness outward and upward and then, giving way to fur, turns back in toward the body, there is a hollow. That hollow fits my thumb as if made by my own thumbprint long ago, perhaps in another lifetime when I was handmaiden to a minor goddess.. If even a minor goddess is granted the powers to shape things in small ways, then I might have asked for just one thing for the future me: this hollow here just above a dog's paw. And I would have asked for this so that at some moment in the future the perfect fit of my thumb into that place would serve as a reminder that since time out of mind, for lifetimes without measure, my soul and this dog's had been together, intertwined in the great ocean of life. In wondering if the hollow was shaped to fit my thumb or my thumb to fill that hollow, I would remember that we are all holder and held, teacher and taught, guide and guided. I would set this hollow here for my future self to remember that even when a heartbeat no longer pulsed faintly under my hands, when my thumb reluctantly stilled its gentle rhythms of stroking the soft fur, our connection would go on. In this simple, sweet hollow, I would mark the dog as my fellow traveler and my teacher. How do we possibly measure the grace granted us by our dogs?"

This has been singing in my head all morning...think its my husky's song...She would sing this...this would be her message...She was Mother Earth.....

 On a clear day
Rise and 1ook around you
And you'll see who you are
On a clear day
How it will astound you
That the glow of your being
Outshines every star
You’ll feel part of every mountain sea and shore
You can hear
From far and near
A word you’ve never, never heard before...
And on a clear day...On a clear day...
You can see forever...
And ever...
And ever...
And ever more. . .

Au Revoir, Panchen!!  Hope you have a wonderful flight and enjoy your new home, little one. Vickie

He is a very sweet, very smart dog....He is tracking or mapping out the back deck.....in the kitchen, he has a post by the door...and he slept on a futon right near my bed last night...He growly talks.....I am learning alot...He is like my other lhasa, Sunny....I had forgotten...They like to be close, but they are not lap dogs....

I have a thangka of Tara from an exhibit in New Mexico I got several yrs. ago with a Buddha statue in front of it....temporarily it was sitting in the corner of my bedroom.....I saw Panchen stand in front of it for a couple of minutes....and had the thought that he knew what it was and was paying homage...Chris said pictures have vibrations....(I have learned that from having pics of my spiritual teachers....but I thought differently of this pic of a deity....silly, I guess...really the same thing.....) This dog is different from any I have had before.....very thoughtful....I know he was meant to be here with us.....I think he is glad to have several warm beds and good company....

also....I am keeping my fingers crossed and watching each day.....He does seem to know the difference betweeen outside and inside....So I haven't really kept a belly band on.!..........(and there are probably so many smells in the bedroom rug....its so old...) but he has managed to show very good manners in the potty area so far....(I really hate belly bands..and they seem that they would be uncomfortable to a dog like him with such long hair)..(..and I really have not missed anything...)

This little being has not worn a belly band since he arrived....I leave the doors to the deck from the kitchen and the bedroom open so that he can go in and out when I am here.....He and B had a tussle yesterday...one was sitting on the futon and the other bumped into him.....so they wrestled till I got them apart..........I think they forgave each other this am....He is sleeping alot...I am sure all this new learning he has to do and three  other house mates is a bit tiring...Its hotter here too....I am getting braver about cooking from scratch.....and everyone seems to like it....He is eating more every day....When we go do errands in the car, I have left his towel (as a transitional object....so he is comfortable) along with a big furry throw on the floor in the front seat...He likes to be there....He does not like to be alone....He will bark softly to let us know to come get him and we do and he will settle in on the couch....

Yes. I will send the crate back to you. I think Panchen is settling in. The cat is interested in him. Pippi the little shih is a friend. B and P must be able to smell each other, right? I think B is better...He goes around the futon when P is laying on it or sometimes lays beside him. ..A bell might drive us all crazy as we are sensitive to sound. I try not to leave him alone at home....He comes in the car with me when I do errands...Either Bruce or I are home at any one time. I really do not know how you carry on with managing so many dogs. It is amazing. P is my dog of the heart. He is very quiet just in a soul kind of way...hard to explain. He does not have alot of internal chatter....Whereas Pippi is always moving and looking for attention and B is always looking for food and P is content. He comes up to me in a very sweet way and stretches at my feet and asks for attention....when he wants it....He is just a lovely dog. I think they have all gained a little weight from me cooking. ..I tried to walk him down the hill...but he doesn't seem comfortable with it...Did he ever go on walks with anyone do you know?

So he might be tentative because of the traffic....it might just take awhile for him to be comfortable...We could do a little at a time.............I am glad he's with me, too....

Crate will arrive on Thursday...............saw Pip and Panchen play this morning on the deck........Pippi is 8 lbs...

Panchen had some skin irritation on his tail....I am not sure what it is from....combination of having a vaccination....and some anxiety...hot weather......I am not sure what the cause is....I  put aloe vera gel on it....and Rescue Remedy creme and some Lavender essential oil....not all at the same time...I will keep a close watch on it...If I take him to the vet, I am pretty sure they will give a cortisone shot....and I think I should stay away from that......unless he can't stop leaving it alone....The weather last week was hot in spots....Do you think I should have his hair cut a bit shorter? What would you suggest about his tail and his coat? I like that his hair covers his eyes and they are protected........

I had to go to Chicago for 3 days to help my dad...I had a petsitter here and my son and his girlfriend....Panchen bit ....who tried to take him outside on the deck and peed all over the bedroom and hid under the bed.........I came back expecting to find a mess....but it wasn't so bad and he was very  glad to see Bruce and me...I think he really likes Bruce.......I know how long it takes to settle in.......poor doggy........

Ohhhhhh....poor Panny!! I would have never expected this from him. It's great he was glad to see you and Bruce!! Maybe next time you leave, the transition should be a little longer??? Have the petsitter come a few hours ahead...have him go outside with you and her...
 
Springtime in the Rockies,
Debby

Its just too many new people for him to have to deal with I think.....He knows we are his main caretakers....................

I like this guy (http://www.dogtorj.net/id5.html).....and what he has to say about food allergies and animals (and humans)................Panchen is a Yogi dog....I made kitchari the other day (for me)....staple diet of Indian yogis ...rice and mung dal with spices and ginger for easy digestion and Panchen was smellling it so enthusiastically.....

What shampoo have you used for Panchen? (very gentle, it would seem...) didn't know if I was supposed to write you or the blog? He is going to be groomed tomorrow by an experienced lhasa groomer who Chris has gone to for years......but I wanted to bring my own shamp

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Thank you for that info.!!....so much to learn....love the different colors.....P is still inhabiting the cave under my bed.....I hope he does ok at the groomers...She is lhasa savvy....we'll see if she is Gompa savvy....yes...will let you know...

 

Debby: Took Panchen and B to the vet this am...B was making weird yelps and scaring me and I couldn't figure out what was bothering him...We couldn't find a thing...Panchen got a new E collar and the scratch was not lacerated, so I will just put a bit of antibiotic on it and then  next some Helicrysum oil that works for skin conditions..after a couple days.....I called the groomer and she didn't even know she had nicked him!....Chris told me she has gone to K.C. for 15 yrs....and she has never nicked one of her dogs....

Took P. to the eye doc because I am there almost every week getting eye meds for the other guys...Dr. Hacker checked him and confirmed his condition...said just to watch for any goopy eye...and he had a cataract in one eye...Just wanted to know I didn't have to put anything in the eyes...Course I had to tell the receptionist and the tech and Dr. H. about Panchen and where he came from...He was sitting on my lap with his head in the crook of my arm...and one other owner asked why he was so quiet and calm....She said he either must be sick or old...I said to myself, no he is just yogi dog....People don't really know about the people's lhasas versus the lama's lhasas...(why should they?) and I was wondering how I ever got to this point where I have a lama's dog from a far corner of the world...

Thank you Debby..I think the blog is wonderful..Since I am at home and don't have a real job right now and been a little under the weather the last few weeks..(.I fell over my dog gate...wasn't paying attention and bruised some ribs and smashed on my right knee.....a few weeks ago....I was hurting and so mad at myself for doing something stupid and I couldn't walk well...I was so mad!!!!!! I am much better and realize I must get stronger) The blog is a very important connection for me...I just want to know more..There is something about the dogs and my connection with them....Its just so much a part of me I can't explain...and Chris also....We feel we are just crazy and loony about them...(Well, I felt a little less crazy when Bruce showed me the cover of Business Week and the main article in the Pet Economy...says Americans now spend $41 Billion on their pets....very interesting...what does that speak to?  I am very excited about your Open House and Chris and I already talked about trying to get to you....Hopefully we can figure out how to get away for a couple days.. I am getting ready to take a Panchen picture...

When I opened the book, I said, "I love children's books!" and then I read your note....Thank you Debby. It looks wonderful. The only movies I enjoy any more are either about dogs or horses....My shih-tzu had pneumonia last week...3 kinds of antibiotics...and lots of home cooking and watchfulness.. Panchen slept with me in bed....B sleeps in a little donut bed in the middle of Bruce and me because I don't want some other dog stepping on him in the middle of the night...I did want to ask you...a tech question. I wipe Panchen's  eyes out with wet cotton pads now to avoid any matter sitting in there....It looks like I should do this every morning to avoid problems...You don't trim eye hair, do you? When he was groomed by K.C., she left his face hair long like I asked her to protect his eyes...but I could see where it might get problematic...If you want to put this in the blog, its ok...or in the gallery.... or nowhere...


Well, I know this pic is big...If you can't make it smaller, let me know and I will take another one with another camera.....Pippi on left, Panchen, B on the right...



Dear Debby:  I will miss seeing you and Vickie and Kathy and the others this weekend and the Gompas... I know it will be wonderful. I am going to take Bruce down to Big Sur to get some R and R...We haven't been anywhere for a long time. I still have a couple tickets to use and a credit at the Brook Forest Inn (thats a good reason to come back...) So I have to come see you..sometime soon. I saw a small straw bale house on 4 acres in Santa Fe County, an simple spartan retreat kind of house that I have always dreamed of...in Apache Country about 15 minutes from Santa Fe...off 285...I need to go see it...only 6 or so hours drive to Colorado...Bruce thinks we should try to stay in this house for 5 yrs till my kid gets a little more settled and the housing market does its thing...I don't know if I could swing it with a little house in SF....it might be too much...The woman who owned it before rented it out....I have to see the layout...Guess there is also a dog run there...Since I didn't make this trip to you, I will put some money in the mail for the raffle...Will be thinking of you...love, Gail

Simon and Garfunkel’s lyrics to Bridge Over Troubled Water come to mind as you celebrate Silver Dog’s birthday…”Sail on ‘Silver boy’, sail on by. Your time has come to shine. If you need a friend I’m sailing right behind…Like a bridge over troubled water…”
Kathy

good suggestions...I really need to get him to walk...easier for him on level ground...because I have taken him into San Francisco to the reflexologist and he has walked to her office...cause its level and there are lots of smells....He has been better!!!!!!!!!!!!!! didn't bark at all last night..I am doing baby steps....God, sometime I would like to have a normal big lug kind of dog again.....like Sam or Sita...who is hearty...Panchen is sort of like that, just blind...yes..I would like to check in once a week...He also has been sleeping beside me and I think that makes him feel better. If he goes with me in the morning, that is a good start to the day... I like that...He knows he is going with me and I think he feels good about that....This is good Debby, thank you. I wish I lived closer. This is why the world of dog shows and all that stuff is so far away and foreign to me because I just want to enable my guys to be healthy and live a good quality of life....But this training stuff is very important

Hi Debby:  Busy week with too many silly details like the bathroom inspection and the pipes under the toilet and buying dimmer switches for the lights so they operate properly and we are still not done...................Last night was unusually difficult...Panchen must have barked 8  times and I put him back in bed....D and Z came in late and played video games in the living room...D went to the bathroom...He barked at all those things....its gotta be lhasa trait....We had a big talk on them moving to their own place and soon.....its getting too much for both Bruce and I...financially and emotionally and Z has to grow up and take on other responsibilities.....otherwise he will never learn them....so its a big issue and its gotta happen soon.....The night before, there was a dog up the street barking solid for a couple hours and P responded once I think and then went to sleep...haven't done anything with leash training yet...put him on a leash to go to Angie and he walked a bit on Divisidero...but then lay down on the pavement...like "I'm done"...so funny...I bet you he was never leash trained.......that's a new one for me....


 

Last night was better....


Hi Debby:  I gave Panchen a sorely needed bath tonight...I still need to find a good groomer in my neighborhood....to clip his nails and trim his feet hair...He was more comfortable in the bath tonight...He definitely looks like an ancient dog now...like that picture of Nagpo and like those pictures of Nyalu and Katu and the dogs of yesteryear....He has gained some weight altho when he is wet he looks so narrow to me....His face and eyes remind me of a coyote...I call him Coyote Dog sometimes...Looks different than those old pics of him under the flags...A week ago B and Panchen bumped into each other and had a struggle and B was scratched under his eye....but it didn't affect his eye, thank goodness...I called the opthamalogist and he said he would be glad to see him the next day, but it wasn't necessary...I am so paranoid about eye injuries now...been too many of them...B is ok. Panchen was ok. But I try not to have them near each other at all...it just doesn't change. They are too much alike and both blind....I bought plaqueoff and been putting it in their food so their teeth clean up more easily because their food is soft.....haven't been back to the dermatologist yet...but due to go soon...


Debby:  Yes....blind dog issues.rather than new dog issues...Panchen will have a much fuller and richer life at Susan's than here...He didn't have to deal with stairs and plants and fleas and ticks...I am shocked that of all the vets I have been to in the last three years, none mentioned heartworms...I am sure P. is ok in that regard. Even tho Panchen has been in several homes, he has been well loved in each one of those places. I just discovered your creation of the new Gallery for Panchen and it is truly wonderful.